I tithe from my gross. Since I started to tithe, my financial miracles have been varied but evident, what lacks was provided for. But in July and August 05, it's not been easy. I have tithed and given more, but time is running out on me, I haven't been able to pay rent. As I still wait for the Lord, tell me is it strange?
I have been having this battle with doubting my salvation for four years now. Most of the time when I talk to someone about it their first conclusion is that I am not really saved. So I find myself going through the sinners prayer over and over. I know I am a sinner and want to be saved more than anything in the world. I have repented of my sin and asked Jesus to be my savior. The thought that keeps making me doubt is how do I know if I really trusted Him? Did I really accept him and if I didn’t how can I ever? Every time I hear a preacher say do you know you are saved beyond a shadow of a doubt I feel somewhat angry because I fear I will never know. Some nights I can’t sleep because I fear those words “depart from me ye who work iniquity I never knew you”. I just keep thinking what if God says that to me because I really never accepted. It’s like I am afraid to believe I am saved because what if I really am not. Then I am afraid to believe I am not because I have done everything I can to be saved and fear if I am not I never will be. I know Jesus died for my sins and want him to be my Saviour. Just this past week I confessed to a preacher I have doubts sometimes and it’s like he attacked me. Made me feel like If I can’t believe I am saved, then I wasn’t.
Could you explain these verses in Ephesians 4:26, 31. Can we as sinners be angry and not sin?
For the first time recently I noticed in Revelation 22:1-2 that it says "And he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb. IN THE MIDST of the street of it, AND ON EITHER SIDE of the river, was there the tree of life, which bare twelve manner of fruits, and yielded her fruit every month: and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations."
